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September 01, 2005
How to Break My Heart
As if it's not in shards already, after the events of the past five days...
I dropped Clara Jane off at daycare today, and she was more than happy to go. In fact, I wasn't moving fast enough when we were leaving the house, forcing her to stand by the front door while chanting, "Ready skeady go go go go go go go!!!"
When we pulled onto the sidestreet by the daycare facility, she started squealing, "Babies! Babies!" Good, good ... she remembers last week and is happy. This is a cake walk, I tell ya. A cake walk!
Took her to her room, where she hit the floor running to play with the other kids. I slipped out the door without incident.
Ninty minutes later, my cell phone rang. She's been screaming for an hour. I beat feet to the center and picked her up.
As soon as she got settled into her carseat, the screaming stopped and she announced, "I want a cookie!" And because I'm weak, I took her to the coffeehouse, where I bought a scone for us to share and a second cup of hot tea for myself, since I had to chug the second one in order to fetch her.
I sat down at the table, gave Clara Jane her first bite of scone, and then heard what was playing on the sound system...
"You just call out my name
And you know, wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again."
Fucking bitch Carole King.
So, if you happened to be in a coffeehouse today where an 18-month-old was happily noshing a scone while her rather frail and frazzled mother sobbed, that was me. Sorry.
Posted by Robin at September 1, 2005 03:02 PM
Comments
Oh man. Well, at least you know she likes you, right?
Posted by: Jack's Raging Mommy at September 1, 2005 05:01 PM
You know Lorelai probably had to go rescue Rory a time or two. It will get better for both of you. I promise.
Posted by: Lisa V at September 1, 2005 05:40 PM
When you need a little mama love, nothing else will do. Clara Jane has learned that life lesson cold.
Bet she'll be as fine as froghair the next time.
Posted by: DixiePeach at September 1, 2005 06:06 PM
i am having different yet similar attachment issues. i want to leave yet stay yet leave yet stay. i want to her to learn to play with other little peanuts and enjoy it and have fun. ugh.
fucking carole king and a few other people i can't think of right now!
Posted by: jenB at September 2, 2005 12:48 AM
Oh, sweet little Clara Jane. *sigh*
I miss those days...usually the screaming *starts* when I put my son in a car seat.
Of course, he is 11.
Posted by: Summer at September 2, 2005 07:47 AM
Oh, my...
I too would have lost it. You know...as shitty as the day was, maybe you'll look back at that moment and remember it differently when she's older and is embarrassed at the thought of having your around. Bean is 2 and half and sometimes when I pick her up, she screams that she wants to stay. You can't win for losing...whatever that means.
Posted by: clipgirl at September 2, 2005 09:36 PM
Awww. I know it's irritating, but you've got to admit, it's cute how much she needs you.
But yeah, it'll be cuter when she's able to stay there like she's supposed to and not cry.
Posted by: Karla at September 3, 2005 07:01 PM
Actually, I wasn't irritated at all, except with the song choice at the coffeehouse. Seeing how she perked up and everything was suddenly "all better", simply because I was there, pretty much turned me into a gigantic puddle of melted butter. I was slightly disappointed to have to put off the mountain of work I was doing, but I was more than happy to spend a day with the kiddo.
Posted by: Poppy at September 3, 2005 08:43 PM
hey, i've been known to scream for cookies. hell, i think that is perfectly justified.
Posted by: PKB at September 3, 2005 10:18 PM
